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[lawofgravity]

my sister gave me a hug today. this sounds retarded, but i started crying. she's been gone for such a long time and the relationship between us was stagnant. it's my fault it was that way..because i didn't talk about it. i didn't want her to know how badly it hurt me. that i felt like she just didn't care about me. i think i reached her a little bit today. now i feel sort of dumb and awkward.

i think she understands i just..feel bad.